I've got your picture on my wall.

I don't understand the difference between loving someone and being in love with them.  Maybe it's just a guy thing?  Surely, love is all you need?


What do we have to lose if we try again?  At least we would definitely know it's not meant to be.  Why throw something away if it could be fixed?  I really do think we can fix this.  I miss you so much.

I really do.

I felt awful for Saturday, but we ended up having a nice evening.  You could have just asked me to leave once I was awake, but you didn't.

If you really are stuck for making your mind up, then why not give it a shot?  If it doesn't work out, so be it.  It pains me to write that, but I need to say it.  I can't go on like this forever, not knowing, but I dread not being with you so much that I am willing to wait.

We said before that we need to sort our lives out, and right now, having you back is what I need to sort my life out.  I would be happy and confident again.  I might even see something worth looking at in the mirror when I brush my teeth in the morning, instead of a useless shell.

I am so scared I will never get to wake up to see you sleeping peacefully next to me ever again.