well then

I was going to quit smoking again in the new year, but 5 free 50g pouches of tobacco are telling me otherwise.

Also.

How often do you check your facebook? It'd be nice to know if you're just ignoring me.

So much for healing,
Eventually,
I'm just as damaged as I'll ever be.

Longing for the Day

I've been trying to find a way that I could say it you -
Say it you, all that I've been trying to say.
I've been stuttering my way from here to anywhere -
Anywhere you can hear me stutter away.

I've been longing for the day, when you would say "Hey,
I feel a little fragile today, and I was wondering if I could drop on by?"

I've been talking to total strangers in the middle of the night,
Because I get so nervous when I dial your number
That I never quite punch it in right, in spite of me.

So I haven't been as strong as I had thought I'd be,
But I think I've been stronger than you would concede.
So let's do that exercise where you close your eyes
And fall back onto me, and you will see I'm strong after all.

I will lift you up if you'll lay me down.

So today could be the day when we both say "Hey,
I feel a little fragile today, and I was wondering if I could drop on by?"

So I won't be nervous when I dial your number in the middle of the night.
I will clear my throat, then I'll sing this song,
And I'll be out the door and round before the first of the new day's light.

cor blimey guv!

It's been a helluva long time now.

We don't even know each other.

You're nearly 21! God I want to wish you a happy birthday (and get a reply... even just "thanks" would be nice)

Turning back the clocks is a ridiculous thing to ask for. I'm sure we've both changed.

Is it wrong for me to want to show you how much of a better person I am now and who you are missing out on?

I don't know how, but you appear in my news feed on facey-b whenever you change your profile picture. I always look. God you are more beautiful than I remember.