Howdy

You can expect no more depressing posts from me anymore.

I'm the happiest I've been. Ever, from what I can remember.

I'm at the crossroads of becoming an adult. Scares the shit out of me to be honest, but I know I'm going to feel.... free? I don't know. The end of my education. I somehow feel my eyes are being opened to the rest of the world. The bigger picture.

Just need to get a fucking job now.

Right Then.

Over the past month or so I've been feeling a lot better about myself.

Not that I've been totally hung up on you for this long.

I just feel more.... open. Like I can let someone else into my life now.

Just know this. You were awesome. I did love you to bits, and you will always have a special place in my heart as my first love. Congratulations. No one can ever take that away from me. You are also the first person to break my heart. Well done there as well I guess.

Now, where does this leave you in my head? My first love, or my first proper break up? I guess the first. That way I can talk to you in a semi-friendly manner if the opportunity ever rises.

But know this.

I will never forget you.

Thank you for all the good memories.

I will treasure them forever.

What?

What did you ever see in me? I have tons of pictures of you, as well as you and me.

In every single one you are gorgeous.

In every single one I look like a spastic.

Thank you for putting up with my ugly self for two years.

Oh dear

Oh my friend loneliness, where have you been?
You left me to the lure of the lover who left me alone.
Now you come crawling back, and I'll let you in,
And we'll slip back into grooves that we cut in ourselves long ago

But there must be a better half, somewhere out there.
She lives a better life, a life that shares,
Shares with a better man.
A man who is there when she calls in the night
Who says "Hey, it's alright".

Oh my dear distance, I've met you before.
Longing for a lover who's lost on a far distant shore
And all my imperfections, are all that remain.
And the days when I'd love you and I'd leave you, and you'd wish that I would stay

There must be a better half, somewhere out there
She lives a better life, a life that shares
Shares with a better man
A man who is there when she calls in the night
Who says "Hey, it's alright".

I know what she looks like, her face and skin, the smell and the rest
I know the feel of her soul, but God help me I just cannot find her address
Oh I've how I've tried but now all that is left
Is my old friend distance and sweet loneliness

There must be a better half, somewhere out there
She lives a better life, a life that she shares
Shares with a better man
A man who is there when she calls in the night
Who says "Hey, it's alright"
"Hey, it's alright"
"Hey, it's alright"