What?

What did you ever see in me? I have tons of pictures of you, as well as you and me.

In every single one you are gorgeous.

In every single one I look like a spastic.

Thank you for putting up with my ugly self for two years.

Oh dear

Oh my friend loneliness, where have you been?
You left me to the lure of the lover who left me alone.
Now you come crawling back, and I'll let you in,
And we'll slip back into grooves that we cut in ourselves long ago

But there must be a better half, somewhere out there.
She lives a better life, a life that shares,
Shares with a better man.
A man who is there when she calls in the night
Who says "Hey, it's alright".

Oh my dear distance, I've met you before.
Longing for a lover who's lost on a far distant shore
And all my imperfections, are all that remain.
And the days when I'd love you and I'd leave you, and you'd wish that I would stay

There must be a better half, somewhere out there
She lives a better life, a life that shares
Shares with a better man
A man who is there when she calls in the night
Who says "Hey, it's alright".

I know what she looks like, her face and skin, the smell and the rest
I know the feel of her soul, but God help me I just cannot find her address
Oh I've how I've tried but now all that is left
Is my old friend distance and sweet loneliness

There must be a better half, somewhere out there
She lives a better life, a life that she shares
Shares with a better man
A man who is there when she calls in the night
Who says "Hey, it's alright"
"Hey, it's alright"
"Hey, it's alright"

well then

I was going to quit smoking again in the new year, but 5 free 50g pouches of tobacco are telling me otherwise.

Also.

How often do you check your facebook? It'd be nice to know if you're just ignoring me.

So much for healing,
Eventually,
I'm just as damaged as I'll ever be.

Longing for the Day

I've been trying to find a way that I could say it you -
Say it you, all that I've been trying to say.
I've been stuttering my way from here to anywhere -
Anywhere you can hear me stutter away.

I've been longing for the day, when you would say "Hey,
I feel a little fragile today, and I was wondering if I could drop on by?"

I've been talking to total strangers in the middle of the night,
Because I get so nervous when I dial your number
That I never quite punch it in right, in spite of me.

So I haven't been as strong as I had thought I'd be,
But I think I've been stronger than you would concede.
So let's do that exercise where you close your eyes
And fall back onto me, and you will see I'm strong after all.

I will lift you up if you'll lay me down.

So today could be the day when we both say "Hey,
I feel a little fragile today, and I was wondering if I could drop on by?"

So I won't be nervous when I dial your number in the middle of the night.
I will clear my throat, then I'll sing this song,
And I'll be out the door and round before the first of the new day's light.

cor blimey guv!

It's been a helluva long time now.

We don't even know each other.

You're nearly 21! God I want to wish you a happy birthday (and get a reply... even just "thanks" would be nice)

Turning back the clocks is a ridiculous thing to ask for. I'm sure we've both changed.

Is it wrong for me to want to show you how much of a better person I am now and who you are missing out on?

I don't know how, but you appear in my news feed on facey-b whenever you change your profile picture. I always look. God you are more beautiful than I remember.

Are you gonna live your life wonderin' standing in the back lookin' around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you've grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.

Sorry about that

it hasn't been that long
since we drank to the sunset, until it was gone.
and down with it went our pain and fear,
as we slowly broke contact more and more, with every beer.
and we passed out in each other's arms,
both admitting we'd never felt better, never felt so warm.
but awoke in each other's eyes
without wearing a stitch of clothing, we were both deeply in disguise.
and maybe i just set aside the fact that you were broken hearted.
in my own special selfish way.
and if i hadn't set aside the fact that you were broken hearted.
hell knows where your heart would be today.
maybe with me.
it seems like it's been so long since we kissed through the darkness, until it was dawn.
up with it came our pain and fear that we'd already lost each other.
we both knew that the end was near.
maybe i just set aside the fact that you were broken hearted.
in my own special selfish way.
and if i hadn't set aside the fact that you were broken hearted.
hell knows where your heart would be today.
maybe with me.